mindless self indulgence

i like smarties. i say this because my science lesson today went from boring physics to boring physics using smarties.

friday, five till closing.
sunday, ten till five
sorry, i just got a call from my boss, he gave me my hours for this week, but i have nowhere to put them because im in the middle of a maths class, so they're going on here. YAYYAYAYAAYYAYAYYYAYAYAYAAY

DAY6

-something you hope you never have to do:

i hope i never have to make a runner with someone elses drugs. i dont know why that would ever be necessarry, but just in case it is, i hope i never have to. like, if they give me the drugs, and then just as i'm about to pay them, a pack of rabid wolves come at me, and i have to run away. that would be shit.
keep your rebid dogs jesus, you rabid dog.

:D

DAY 5

-something you hope to do in your life:

sometime in my life i hope i learn to not regret. to choose wisely when faced with decisions, and hopefully to be a little happier because of it.

DAY 4

-something you have to forgive someone for:

i have to forgive my dear father for being a douche in so many ways. it will take rather a long time i imagine, and will be wraught with sorrow and anger, but like, i imagine eventually he will be forgiven. probably when he's on his deathbed, and i'll feel bad, and say it, but not really mean it, and then for the rest of my life, i'll feel terrible because i let a man die believing a lie.
YAY

baiii!

DAY 2

-something you love about yourself

i love that i can say something and make people laugh. its the best feeling in the world, even if people just laugh because they'd feel bad otherwise. laughing is win, and the fact that i can inspire it makes me super happy.
thank you

and goodnight.

DAY 1

something you hate about yourself:

i hate the fact that i always pretend to be something i'm not because i'm scared of what other people will think. i am who i am, i can try and fool them into thinking im something else, but i wont always succeed, and that scares the shit out of me.
stop it maggie.

see you tomorrow faceless people

just so you know

Day 01 ? Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 ? Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 ? Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 ? Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 ? Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 ? Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 - someone who made your life worth living for

Day 08 ? Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 09 ? Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 ? Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 ? Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 ? Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13 ? A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 ? A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15 ? Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16 ? Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 ? A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 ? Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 ? What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 ? Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 ? (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 ? Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23 ? Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 ? Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25 ? The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 ? Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 ? What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 ? What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 ? Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 ? A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

looking on the brighter side:

describing words:
that is the subject o todays witty, excellent post.
but first, let me dedicate a bit to the amazing, lovely, indescribably excellent boy, Matthew Teague, who I have been going out with four exactly one month, as of yesterday. so i've been going out with him not for exactly one month, but one month and one day.
still, i love him with all my might. well, most of my might. the other ten percent i reserve for slaying titans and the like. but most of my might is dedicated to loving him, and feeling inadequate when he's a better boyfriend than i am girlfriend.
oh well.
i love you matthew,

and now, let us continue on to our original topic, describing words. i have decided that i do not in fact wish to use these words, nor do i wish to talk about them, so i am going to leave,
bai

god knows all the evil that we've hidden in our hearts

so like, wow,
i didnt know i'd been given superpowers. hold on,i'll just grab my crystal ball and see if i really am psychic. yes, i see kittens, gasping for breath.

hold up, that's me, being a dickhead.

i am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end...

meow,

so hye i'm am neither the alpha nor the omega, nor am i the beginning or the end, but you know, even if the shoe is a little too small, wear it.

so yes, i am at work, again, after having avoided it for three days.

this morning i had a white chocolate mocha from Gloria Jeans, and my god, it was beautiful. i rather do love it haha.

mest week is Work Experience at the Stirling Hotel, ten till five every day except friday, which is two till eleven. can't say im looking forward to it one bit. i am very nervous, which is a terrible thing to admit, as i never get nervous about anything. well i do, i just dont tell people beause obviously i am the messiah, and i am perfect, and i'm just a whole lot better than everyone else, so obviously it would be weird for me to get nervous.

so now that i have explained that, let's get onto somthing slightly more amusing.

i was in town yesterday, staring into the distance while the people i was with were deciding where to go next, and i had this super profound thought. one of those thoughts you think that someone who is stoned should have. i was thinking how the only pair of shoes i've ever bought that really fitted me were trainers. otherwise i never get shoes that fit me properly. they're either too big or too small. the the trainers fit perfectly, every pair i ever get.

anyway, my thought was that maybe i can't get shoes that fit because i dont know myself properly yet. you know the saying, if the shoe fits, wear it. well, i wear shoes that don't fit. all the time.

maybe that's saying something.

and with the trainers. maybe i can get them to fit properly because im still ';training' to be myself.

hahahahahaha.

god it's funny, but it makes sense to me.

i mean, it's sort of weird, don't you think. well maybe you dont, but i do, and that's what matters.

anyway, that's my profoundity for oday, now I'm just going to go blathering about correspondence and accounts and the abuse of staples, and that sort of thing.

how exciting.

so currently, on my desk there is :

a computer, a mouse, a keyboars, a bunch of post it notes, a paperclip, lots of bullclips, a plastic thing for something, a red pen, a list of strata companies that close July 31st, a piece of paper telling me about a window, a used role of sticky tape, a pencil holder with a highlighter in it, a sumber nine sticker, a few annoying clips, some office stamps that i will soon use to decorate my arm, a stapler, a water bottle, aq bunch of accounts paper, a printer, a phone, a paper holder with papers in it, some plastic drawers with papers and envelopes in them, white out amd a piece of paper saying wonder woman.

that is all.

oh, and my phone. and some rubber bands

and you're face.

there is also a post it stuck to my computer that tells my manager whaty hours i worked, the date, and whether or not i completed all the scans for the closing of july 31st.

i have been gritting my teeth while scanning, and now my mouth really hurts, and im not exactly hungry for lunch, but i'm overheating, which is really just terrible, and i think the scanner just jammed, which is almost abysmal.

i could go make a cup of tea right now, but to be honest, i just can't be bothered, which is a bit hilarious.

i am overheating a bit, but i cant be bothered taking off my jacket, or my scarf. this could have something to do with the fact that i haven't eated since ten last night. thats all right. i have also only slept about five hours in the past eighteen hours haha.

so like, today's not going to be that great for me, unleses i stay very active, for the rest of the day. i dont know why, but as i write, there is the sound of a bell going, and im not sure what it is, but its rather monotonous and irritating.

kay ima go now.

BAI BEBE

i turn away as the sunshine fades to black...

there is no picture here right now, because the internet is being a slut, and i cant make it do what i want it to do.

i am tired, and in a terrible mood, and trying to distract myself with 'scary kids scaring kids', but failing in a fairly abysmal way.

there is literally no food in this house, which is supremely annoying, because i am really bored, and when i'm bored i like to eat, but obviously f there is nothing to eat, i cannot amuse myself.

im really quite tired, despite the fact that i slept for three hours just before, and then got woken up by a movie that was playing really loud. guess that's what i get for falling asleep in the lounge, rather than...another room.

so tomorrow i was going to go see the girl with the dragon tattoo with my mother, but it seems that i am no longer doing that, which is a bit of a shame. but then again, i really dont feel like it.

i dont feel like anything, except for food and

no food

squidgy squidgy

meow, manizzle.

okay so, there is no one interesting on msn, there is nothing good on tv, and pretty much nothing good to eat either. im hanging out for the roast chicken we're having for dinner, but since its only three thirty, i feel that i will be waiting for a while.

i have put Band of Horses on, and it is sort of lovely.

i believe i am satisfactorily bored, and i really feel like maccas, which is not good because it was all i ate for thursday and friday. talk about excellent diet. hopefully when i get home from the beautiful port willunga tomorrow, i will do something good or something. i am thinking of going out a little later and taking some photos, but i dont know if i can be bothered, because of the cold. oh well.

so explaining the photographs above, that's what i used to look like, which is mildly hilarious, but i thought i would put them up, because i actually prefer how i looked then to how i look now.

totally,

or something.

:/

okay so like,

yesterday night, i went 4wdriving. it was actually surprisingly hilarious. David drove the car into a tree, and broke the back tail light, which was sort of amusing, because the reason he did so was because the steering wheel actually responded properly.

and we watched some big bang, in a house in the middle of nowhere, and i renamed some persons dog bubbles, and scratched its ears, and it was lovely.

so yeah, that was nice. and tomorrow i am going to see 'The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo' with mum, and i am actually looking forward to it. i am going to start reading the book tonight, and i think that should be quite nice.

i am really super bored, and i have no idea what to do, but this is not amusing me a satisfactory amount, so i will talk some shit later.

BAI BEBES