anyone can find the same white pills.

oh baby im fucked.notonly was thispractically the worst day ofmylife, butnow imstuck at ten past midnight, inmroom, with just scotch and cigarettes andhomework for company.i have a meetingwith the school at eight am tomorrow morning, at which i am supposed to show them a tonof homework that i havent done.technically right now i should be doing that homework, but insteadimon blogger, wastingmytimeandprobably everyone elses. i dont even know how long it is until i have to go back to school. i few weeks i imagine. i cant believe i've fucked up this bad. i was so ready for all this crap,i was going to show them that i was worth it and now i dont even think i am. i dont think im worth shit anymore.not to anyone. im a fucked up bitch that wont quite smoking and can suddenl only drink beer and cider.i've fucked almost everone i know over like a million times, and im fucking people over that i dont even know. everyones life is difficult,but right now i feel like mine is falling apart. all i can think about is nothing. all i can think about is attaining perfecton, and that just doesnt seem possibleanymore. icant even make the space button on mycomputer work. i havent eaten more than about six fries in the past twent fourhours, and im basicallyjust fucked.im sickofbeing a fat bitch. imsickofbeingstupid. fuckimjustsickand i need some fucking help. i need help. imfuckedandi need help.now.