yes I've made mistakes, but life doesn't come with instructions.

i'm looking for inspiration, but everything is quite nondescript, and the post cards i picked up this morning are in the glove box of the car. i can't be bothered going out there just to stare at them until i feel something other than bored.
I'm at work, scanning things from the seventies and pretending i care about strata Corps whilst instead blogging because this can be seen as my lunch time if that is what i so wish for.
so it turns out i have no idea what to write.
i find myself talking about nothing lately. like not in terms of complaining. i literally have spent a number of evenings blathering absolute crap lately. it's sort of nice because it doesn't involve any effort, but im missing getting deeply into the nitty gritty of life, and fucking people's minds with questions.
i think i need to see Annie to partake in these shenanigans. last time i saw her she was wearing a pillowcase.
i miss the days of potato sack dresses and chili juice. my computer just froze, which sort of makes my job pretty hard.
ah, all is well once again. i realized again that i grit my teeth whilst i work, and my jaw is seriously suffering.
I must go in to see Dominic at work today as i must get my sim replaced and my plan transfered. i may or may not have commandeered his iPhone. i feel okay about it because he went eight grand over whatever cap he was on, and now he's busy paying it off, so he can't even use that phone if he tried.
the keyboard I'm using makes a really loud clicking noise when i type, so everyone keeps looking at me like I'm a sus cunt, which i sort of am, because I never do any work and i get paid a fair bit of money for it all.
Anyhow, the other night i was having some time, with some people, and i realized that as a friend, i am pretty sucky. I buy people things and I clean for them and give them food and money and stuff, and all that makes it sound like I'm a pretty decent friend, but apparently not. i can understand that maybe what i do isn't the bestest way to show someone how much they mean to me, but at the same time that's how i do it. When shit gets serious, i do my best, but sometimes that's just not good enough. Oh well.