end of an era

lets all be super something and end on a ninety ninth post.
i'm fucking good enough for myself. I'm good enough to live in my own head for sixteen and a half years.
but fuck this. i'm sick of not being enough for other people.
fuck loving yourself no matter what.
how the fuck are you supposed to love yourself if no one else does.
and not the love people have to give. fuck my family, im so glad they love me, but thats not all i need.
fuck fuck fuck,
fuck being enough for myself.
fuck it completely.
i wish i could get out of my own mind and be someone else, or just disappear.
what, am i supposed to live with being inadequate, or just wait like this until someone comes along that actually needs me.
im sick of passing this off as being a teenager.
it doesnt fucking go away. everything will not end happily ever after.
fuck there goes sleep for tonight. there goes being happy for at least the next week. there goes three fucking months of trying to hold it together. fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you YOU MOTHER FUCKER.